ABOUT ME

Born in 1987, June 4^th, in a beautiful small city, Oradea.

As a kid I don’t remember much from the 1^st ages of my life. I had a good childhood. I was a good kid, obediently. My grandma is telling me how I was standing in the middle of the room surrounded by toys and just playing. I was so quiet that you could hear my breath and the toys striking against each other.
Grandpa died from a foolishness falling from a tree, no one expected this so probably for a few weeks, silence fulfilled our house but I don’t remember many of these as I was just 2 years old.

Life continued as a usual kid, a poor family as we lived in a poor country, but I was happy. We weren’t playing with electronic toys and automatic robots like the Americans, we were playing with animals, paper planes, drawing, or outside in a dusty sand, with spoons or branches. But although, we were still happy.
My parents tried their best working all day long trying to give us a better life, financially speaking. As most of the parents are trying.

I grew up. I went to school. Time passed. I finished high school in 2006. During all those 12 years of school happened a lot of things. When I was 7,8 years old and I was seeing tennis at T.V. sometimes, I hate it. Probably because I didn’t understand the rules and 2^nd I didn’t afford it. When I was 11, in the summer holiday, my neighbor, a friend called David asked me to go with him cause he was playing tennis. I said I don’t like it, but after all I went. From that day, I fall in love with it. Soon, tennis became a big part of my life. At school, home, as I was walking, I had only tennis in my mind. I started as an amateur but I learned quickly and my coach helped me to fight to play at the tournaments next year. Everything was beautiful, but also the money were nice. It was too expensive. As I was playing better, as more money I had to give. I couldn’t find a sponsor, it was too hard as a Romanian. My parents made their effort. But soon, my happiness was going to finish.

One of the biggest problems of the world : money. I didn’t had them. So I had to quit. My dream to see myself one day winning a grand slam was crashed. The very 1^st days after I quit, I think I cried every day. After a week I went to the field and I told my coach this was it. A part of me died that week.
I went on, lived my life. I didn’t blame anybody. I wasn’t alone, I saw a lot of talented kids during those two years, that had to give up because of money.

I grew up and I saw in United States almost in all the parks tennis fields, for free. But no talented kids, they were all playing just “to have fun”. And they were. They were having fun. But I didn’t. In fact, tears started to flow on my face. I was asking myself why? Why such a big difference between countries, between humans. I never understood. And maybe I’ll never get an answer.

Anyway, life went on, I played soccer, water polo, tennis table. But none of them brought my happiness back. Knowing the difference between my country and United States , a new dream born in me. To get in United States. It was pretty hard. Four years I have dreamed it. And after four years I’ve got a visa and I got to United States.

Only one good thing happened there. I realized that I love Romania. Poor, but happy. U.S. it’s a hell alive. You don’t have a life there, you don’t have a soul. Everybody is running, everybody is afraid of something. It’s a mechanic life, with peoples like robots. You born, you sleep, you work, you die.
I’m home now. I’m in Oradea, Romania, the place where I was born. Happy or not, I’m living my life and trying my best. I’m at college now, 2^nd year, I’m learning, I’m working, I’m singing, I’m writing. At 18 years old I’ve published a book called “Moments”. I’m fighting for a better life. I still have hope. Like we all do. Or not.

 

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